I'm still here I swear

No point apologising that I haven't posted in ages. I always apologise and what does that change? I'm still going to take ages to post again the next time.

I just wanted to write so I'm up to date a little bit.

So.....

I'm just after starting my second semester in college. I'll be finished first year in no time. It hasn't started off too well. I have an assignment due at half two and i'm writing this?

I'm completely done with lads. I know people always say that after a few bad experiences but I'm actually getting rather afraid of guys showing interest in me. I've been hanging out with these guys I used to go to school with and I love being able to sit on their knees if needs be in the car or sleep in the same bed with if we go to a house party together but i'm terrified of either of them trying anything on. I like being comfortable with them but anything more always ruins everything.
But it is great fun with them. They always try kidnap me and get me stoned. We all went to one of their houses last Friday and took MDMA. It was such a good night. His sister has the coolest bed.

Food wise I haven't been eating much. Last Friday I ate about 4 skittle sweets and 5 malteasers throughout the entire day. Saturday I went to dinner for a birthday and I had absolutely no appetite after the MDMA. I ordered a chicken caeser salad with no dressing and I could barely finish half of it. Then we went clubbing and I was dancing like a mad yoke. You'd swear I was still drugged up.
 Sunday I ate a good bit though. Ended up meeting the lads again and they got KFC and gave me some chicken. Then we got chinese that night. Monday I'd no appetite again so fasted. This morning I ate one low fat chocolate mousse with like 60cals. Don't plan to eat till later tonight. I'm going to a social night in college to watch movies and there'll be pizza. I've a feeling I'll tell Kieran I had pizza but when it comes time to actually eat it I'll tell them all I already ate or I'm not in the mood for pizza. Movie should be good though.

That's about all I can think of at the moment. I'll try post again this week.
xx