Yay for Fasting!

Right so I was fasting today and then after school I skipped study as it was far too sunny to stay indoors. So I sat with a few others girls behind this wall near the playground in the village and they started talking about how they were fasting today. I wasn't really listening so I was all like "Wait what!?" but they soon informed me that the Trocaire charity fasts are on today and tomorrow so that's why they were fasting. It just sounded so weird when they said they were fasting. One girl who said she was fasting then started eating chips and a burger and started laughing saying "Of course I'm not actually going to fast, are you mad? I'll collect the money and tell them I did but feck that I need to eat." She's then went on to say things about how those staving in Africa can't blame others, they need to go out and get a job or something or go to college. I wanted to smack her! She's so incensitive. Fuck her though. She's hugh and she always will be.

So when another one of the girls went to get some food I was good and didn't get anything. Not that I had any money but she offered me some of her chips which I easily denied. I avoided lunch at break easily too as I went to a small shop called Spar with my friend Tanya and her boyfriend Thomas who'd friends with Steven (Therefore all Thomas's friend came too including steven) and all the lads bought wedge rolls and sweets but watching lads eat would turn anyones stomach. When I didn't buy anything Steven did comment, asking me why I came to Spar if I wasn't going to get anything. I told him I didn't have any money, and I was hardly going to stay in the school alone.

Before late study I felt so hungry but I also felt strong which to be, overpowers any feeling of hunger. The two girls sitting across from me are quite big and they were wolfing down their dinners despite one of them already having had a full dinner from the fast food place only about two hours ago. The other girl there who's average weight was having pasta carbonara but I don't like her personally so I liked watching her eat those icky calories. My friend Clara got so happy and excited when ever someone new came in with their dinners and kept asking them what it was. I on the other hand kept quite. I wanted to know what they were eating, By god I really did, when I'm hungry I love listening to other people tell me what they're eating because I know I'm not eating that and I feel good then. But the difference is my friend Clara will be eating that (Or something similar, some sort of dinner anyways).

So I'm at home now and my Dad's not here. Not too sure where he is but I'm sorta glad he's not here. I'm so determined not to eat today that i'm not worried an unattended kitchen will see me fall at the last hurdle. Infact, I might go watch some tv while skipping. Ya that sounds like a good plan. I need to catch up on my shows but I also need to do my exercise and I can only really skip when he's not here.

Talk soon.
Xx